SIGH...

hello dear self.. you're turning 20 years old *unofficial* no more teen in your age...but things become more complicated, problems is everywhere and  everythings is change so  please head up stay strong and move on  hmm you know what ? thats the hardest part :( well 2013 taught me a lot of lessons.. you fighting what you thinks its worth for it :') dont make a silly things become more serious that will be lead to negative thinking aite? and negative thinking is not good at all *ek eleh*  but  a few more days to 2014 and heart can't let you go it has been emmm 1 year and a half.. * hey i'm still here waiting for you just in case you need me/someone.* sometimes  i feel like everythings went wrong, sometimes i feel like there is something shit happened or suddenly your tears is burst out without knowing the reason all you can do is crying.. just to let go your madness and everythings in your heart  -am i right ? words can't describe your situation no one is understand you except yourself.. oh yea your  surrounding were not stay like that i mean its will change day by day . nobody is stick forever  helloo!! .. people come and go okay so deal with that just be prepared/ . somehow i'm feeling blessed to have them in my life to have a family in my life..this is last em being lonely is good well you have  freedom but lonely sometimes -.- i can lie to everyone but not too myself..